A diaper change is not just a diaper change

I’m kind of a mindfulness junkie.

I have always enjoyed a good yoga class, but I think my interest in mindfulness really took off when my book club read Thích Nhất Hạnh’s The Miracle of Mindfulness a couple of years ago. I read it while Sean and I were in Cannon Beach for a long weekend, and I now look back on that trip as one of the best weekends of my life. I was so present for everything we did together, and present for our relationship.

I like this definition a lot:

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Since reading the book, mindfulness is a muscle I try to tone when I can. Last year, I convinced Sean to take an Introduction to Buddhism class with me. And I’m in a “mindful moms” group right now (so Seattle, no?).

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In September, William grew from this…

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….to this!

It’s certainly not easy to stay present. And those who know me well know that I am quick to jump to the emotion, quick to start planning a future event, or quick to analyze something to the EXTREME.

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Bonding with Dada.

I have been reflecting on my first “real” full month of maternity leave, which started when family left and Sean returned to work in mid-September. The first month forced me to be more mindful.

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W liked staring at Panda. A lot.

I couldn’t plan too far in advance. I had to stop saying to myself, “Well, this worked well with W yesterday so I’m sure it will work again…”

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Even a trip to Dr. Broom’s office (my dentist) was more enjoyable. (Accidentally threw my retainers out when eating a midnight snack…yup.)

I stopped seeing diaper changes as something to check off a list before we headed out for the day. Diaper changes became a chance to connect with W, and sing and talk to him.

Nursing him for hours turned from a chore to a delight when I accepted the fact that it was happening… often.

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Somebody likes to nurse and snooze in the same spot.

I had to let go of my desire to have everything “just right” when friends or family came to visit.

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Shan and Derek continued to bring us burritos… a good sign.

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Jackie, Rachel, and Moose the puppy. Time with grandparents. Martha’s daughters practicing their baby holding skills.

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Playdates with Sarah have made it OK to be two hours late. She just rolls with it. #goodmindfulmama

 

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